Journal entry 1: I like puppies, and ferrets ,and robins and tea and bubble tea, and cocaloa

  WHello. Im jace thorn. Im your lovely narrator. Heres a pretty good photo of me. I made master his own so we dont have to share. Want you know a secret? 

me

Master

or adam. Its the same doll different points in time so given different roles and responsibilities but truth be told its the same doll.

zig zags doll.

morgans doll

morgans doll. Maka maka.

Felixes doll.

Tobaises doll.

And jordans doll.

toby.S

Jordan

Cole 

Daren 

Baby max lonely loftly 

Lakatay. Latvh.

The mother magderoo.

Maryann.

Acrians locket.

Judas.

Sally sending. Ansy Andy. (Zatan)

Kenny kindles. 

These are the dolls of my religion Mary Ann. What andie calls cult cult. We worship toys. ANd i turn the people i love into our idols who are tehm. In our faith that im building. We offer 12 children this catelog of toys. Maybe a magazine, maybe time period based. I dont really know. Anyways. We offer tehse designs then hand sew the dolls to give to kudos. Each one is a different deity based off my friends. Each doll is played with by a different type of problem and is enchanted with love and ritual to soothe the child. For example Kenny Kindles means you have issues with your race. Acrians Locket means you will be a erliigous figure. People are lonely or have codepency to play with adam. To play with Jack Jack means you are a great leader and follower. And so on. Hello dawneld trumpet and Joe Biden.

The toys are held by children in this religion. But they can be played with in adutlhood,, its jst they shoudnt be made unless for personal craftings, or collecting by adults. Only teeangers and kids ages 3-19.

Anyways. I worship toys items and games. And worship by being worshiped but liek the feelings and vibes of being worshiped. Everynoe on earth has ways that they work. Secret vibes and essences and things. For some old cultures, which is to say a time, place, and society or people in community doing things by ways of life- that essence that feeling of the place, that vibe, is culture. And cultures can be started randomly founded over time but are usually communal which means people living by ways of, or jst living their lifes in accordance too. So a community. A group of people all together usually in the same location, living in the same way. Thats a society and thats a culture. In old culture of ireland and wailes, people bowed down to be on top of that food chain. People wanted power and power tehre as they all decided? Even if some didnt like it in the end? That was being submissive being in ways of. ANd thus in that way for those people, worship became being worshiped. And so to worship someone was to be over them, for them to give you offerings and thanks. And so to be the devotee was to be their god. We always loophole this or lie about an excuse for some people so they can do their own thing, and we just say “Oh for that person its traditional-” which means, for that person bowing is bowing, worship is under and its normal by american standards. Heres the infamous gender chart.

For odin.

My master acirans locket made it. And he um, only used hismelf as references weird. And some of his friends in photo with him. Fucking weirdo. Hes a guy. By the way. Crossdressing what the fuck is it? Its when someone who is one gender wears the other like a costack, or a costume.

For events games, or tricks or events. Sometimes true to themselves sometimes not. In america you can be more then one gender its just almost always categorized by two via culture. In other cultures gender is more elleberate and resigned so people can be any presentative form they desire. So crossdressing is when a man identifies as a man but parades arond for occasions or enjoyment a woman. A male crossdresser. And a female crossdresser would be a woman who goes out with a beard if its norse, without lice, or just in general still sees herself as only a woman, but dresses as a man, for the same reasons.

You can crossdress everyday..

Then theirs being transgender and interesex and nonbinary.

What is nonbinary? Nobinary in my culture is an extra gender option provided. Its like “You dont fit just male or just female as teh only two there or want elements of both as your identity?” then your a third category.

Intersex is being born with mixed genetalia but sometimes intersex people are still transgnedr or need to transition.

Then theirs transgender which I and master and olvie brimstone am.

Transgender is when your born one gender but move into the other after a certain point. Yes you can be cisgender and transgender at the same time. Cisgender is comfortable with what your born, you just mentally identify as transgender even if your cisgender. Its just we get a lot of hate for it. So to transition is to go from point a to point b. Its to be assigned or forced one thing and choose another in regards to your gender. This is my transgender chart. I hope it explains what its like. Its not crossdressing though some transgender people consider themselves to be crossdressers and or partake in crossdressing as their birth gender. Or the society assigned one. Gender is a choice in america we even have extensive surgeries about it.

Here is the chart of transgenderism. If you heavily relate to anything on this chart. Chances are you are transgender.

The thing is your internal gender or what you want to be, doesnt have to match how you live or what you show off or represent. Mukatak no shinto no fel imsakt, likastn, no frig, no shilk no ilk’ta no venrekc, no shimaso, no venvue, no bilkp’t, no shinka’lt, no ishero.

So you can live your life and want the accommodations or treatment and even words and prounouns (he, she, they, it) of one, while living your life another. Its like a thing we know here in ym culture. We hd an entire civil rights movement. Its just the way i phrase it is. If the person in the patny hose is packing is it worth the fact you have to hide yours? If the person in the panty hose is tucking or hiding theirs is it worth it you have to shove a sock down there. And if it is you should transition. And if its not or for great occasion then you are still transgender you’d just prefer or for some reaosn cant live it in that way, and if its literally just about that area, the crotch or genitals, then i ask about wearing a swimsuit. Im about to show you two totally covered people for my culture. Warning this is smexy elsewhere.

Now you dont have to take any actions. But this is a good psychosomatic test to see if your transgender. You can be transgender and not want to chagne anything. You can also be transgeender and want to change everything. You can be uncertain and questioning. And you can be uneasy. But heres it. Does the swimsuit you think would be best suited for you even if more then one make you uneasy or extra easy in any strong way? Do you wish it had this or that instead of whats provided? Are you pissed at how the body types are dressed? Is it unfair that this is that or this is that? What is missing here? If you only could wear swimsuits that look like the one for your type,would you be argumentative? Or are you just like “its okay its whatever”.

You can be cisgender or biologically what you were bron and still identify as a transgender version of that without it being a different version. Like a woman born a woman who identifies as a trasngeder women who related to the experience of presenting and overpresnting and hiding and changing, even though shes born with a vagina. She doesnt even have to be nonbinary. You can also love all the female options. Wish that their were more in this way or that way. And enjoy the treatment or be disgruntled with the treatment of your gender, but not want to change how you outwordly, present.

#boardingschoolhatetrain.

You can call it whatever you want and mix and match. BUt thats what being transgneder is. And its sort of hated everywhere it goes. ARIEL and TOBIAS and JADEN are the old irish gods of transgender people. ADAM and EVE and DRACONIAN, and MARBAS, and SITIR, and Belzebub aer also transgender icons. Lilith is womens empowerment. And Lestat would be categoriezed as honourarily, but in veins of.

So yeah. Thats transgender. So im transgender. I was born female but have spent most of my life crossdressing as male until i was ready to be transgender male.You dont always do the crossdressing bit. And now i just crossdress as female when im not but live my life as male but sometimes see that in regards to womanhood or just say women for the culture im in when truly i mean male here. Im just shit at explaining myself. And no i havent had any surgeries yet. I have venmo venmo which is a dominican republic dissorder where your vagina turns into a penis after a bad case of crabs i wished for it and i received it, as if a gift, it just usually teaches you wacky gender roles in the process.

So yeah um pretty soon ill be a biomale literally fuck off if you have an issue with that. I have mutations which are one of a kind physical dissorders on the body, where i change gender with the years, and usually i stay and prefer to stay male its just when im going through age 13. Since i age out of order do to one of these mutations on the benjamin button syndrome family tree, called ARHCINS when you go through seasonal swings of aging out of order, and getting reset continuously to really really young ages. One year im seven the next im 13, you never reach elderly with it. You just get stuck mentally and physically one of the ages, and im stuck 16, and have not aged until archins kicked back in, until like this year so now im 11 again. And i hate having crushes on kids my own age. Clearly my trauma porn made me seem more mature and i was always this well spoken from a really young age, but if you had me read this allowed and i didnt add fake grunt to my voice you’d hear a childs and its awkward as a result of that.

Me:

I was learning shape shifting and it kind of worked. I  accidently developed facial dymophsm as a mutation from mumps which i caught while studying how to shapeshift. So i mean thats kind of how just magick actually works. Its really just “i do a ritual to make this happen” “Thing happens nautrally ALL OF A SUDDEN or randomly” yeah um, no it was cus you did the fucking ritual, it just manifested odd. And when you learn all the systems that you want too, if your in an age where magick and human sacrifice arent dead- then you can even make random spontanious things that are unforeseen happen like leviatting books, or glowing eyes, or shapeshifting which is changing one form into another on command, or short sprees. You can control peoples minds and make them do anything you want at the snap of your fingers, make people forget, change things about the sun and the sky, and go to places with made up creatures youve only dreamed of. Sometimes you have to invent it. But inventing species and magick since i am the inventor of GOKOMAKE magickally insane butterflies that shelter teh sick and can turn into animals weird- but enjoy their pain, to invent a magickal species, just takes a lot of repetitious motions that have correlated and assigned meaning to them. So basically, you just give something value by using the imagery of, or targets for or values of or objects of or chemicals of or actions of or sequences of this that will mean this to me or this in a weird set of meanings i made up. And they can be altered or changed but that usually makes a new system. Science is just magick we understand with rules to work perfectly, and magick is just science without proper recreations, without explanation, or with meaning needed to be valued or assigned or given to it.

So yeah to do a ritual you need to set up elleberates to do over teh course of time in big shows and gestures for. Something with more detail that laasts longer is a ritual. A spell is a quick one that is rather quick. A spell is taking actions, meaning, and some sort of variable which is to say an object a feeling or an essence or presence, and using it in a sequence or with cheats towards a system, with rules taught you by that system and theirs millions, even if im writing to you in a culture and region where magick is basically dead- 

To use whats come before. So for example. Saying a rhyme over and over again while placing your hand on something would invoke the MECOLE system of invisible to you but not to others form of magick if done in the style of howl by moonlight. Invisible pushes and pulls which is always how it starts for most people immediately.

You can evoke or summon spirits invisible people some people can see but others canot, towards you using symbols or chants or magick words in a special order.

You can invoke a spirit or pull the spirit into you and your mind, by drawing it in the same way. But one is in front of you,, the other is in you.

You can be possessed and possess others. To be possessed is for a spirit to control you like a puppet fork or doll on a string without a say or care or meaning.

Shapeshifting is turning into different things.

Shapeshifting is turning from one thing into a nother thing temporary.

A curse is generational magick of the gods and deities, that was shoved down the throats of the victim. By calling upon the work of gods.

Curse work is hurting someone to make them better with spells.

And a hex is a spell thats kind of mean or very cruel towards a person.

A blessing is someones pain turned into someone elses gift.

A spell is making something randomly happen through a sequences of events with assigned meanings.

Now its very important if your inventing magick wanting to be a god, or planning on creating a system for it you will get little to no results for a while till you keep messing with things in the same way to strengthen it over months centuries and years. One day it wil manifest for you and your decdendents even if they get to see it and you dont.

To defiy something is to make it a god. A god is a plant, animal, concept, or feeling, that appears to itself how it sees humans, that controls the cosmos the lights in the sky, the stars, the nebulas, and the forces of everythings homeworld ancestor of the cosmos- EARTH the big blue rock im writing to you from. Everything starts here its what we would label a “Evoltinary, 5, and starting planet” however thats because everything can just sort of exist here smaller. Eventually it makes its way to the stars and nebulas and becomes big, but everything was once born here.

To deify someone is to kill them as a sacrfice they will later surive and come back from though usually almost always changed somehow with some control in how they choose it, that serves others benevolently and consciousnesly and kindly through its or his or their or her own selfish merit. So their personal actions form the nebulas cus of their powers, but they were killed to be one and they have to serve humanity and others.

Anything can be made into a god. You just have to have a religion you hep fathom or thats built around you, willingly die as a human sacrifice, learn the best of the systems and cosmos to your ability, agree to make systems and rules for yourself to help others selflessly (without personal gain or quata unless thats how your selfless or helping others) you just have to usually do about 75 rituals in your lifetime, or turn past actions into them, to be the one.

To be a deity means their are other copies of you unless its your deification that their are not, and most deititeies gods are kings and queens that are no matter how their seen always good smart and kind, that help others by beng self centered and selfish and helping themselves and taking it out on others. There is the one true god that created the gods named ELOHIM JESUS or GOD or JEHOVA or YAWEH he has a lot of names as ra. And his son jesus is him and prett yhot shit as an emo teenage boy forever that is helpful smart and wise beyond the others.

But in general youdont have to worship jesus. To worship is to serve under and bow down to these gods, and help them in any way you can and deciate your things and lives and gifts to. And give them offerings and ask for their help in rituals nad prayers. To work with is the agknowledge them as equals or slightly above you and fathom them.

To be immortal is to live forever ins some way shape or form. To be a true immortal si this but forever as the same slate. To be mortal is to be human and to die and usually under the gods.

All gods are assigned a human form, a animal form, and a tool or a plant. That they have been. All life is on a cycle that cmoes and furows and goes. It is like rain in this way. But the gods keep memories of it which seperates them from others unless the group is provided that.

The afterlife is where you go when you die, it can be this hall or that feild or this undertheearth or this torture for hurting you as the god, but usually thats what that is.

Most gods have a system of top god and lesser god while all gods do bow to the one true god, except jesus and his father who is that god, they usually have their own systems for when their ruling the show.

All myths told of the god are true to them somehow so please know that if you want to be one.

Holiness is something that is pure of heart and mind, that is one of a kind to a god for how special it is or a religion or a culture. Jesus bleeds holyniess and the gods themeslves do holy things. And can make anything when they get deified holy. Its just usually special to them forever in taht way.

If you become a god their is not usually just one of you. Their is the main one and the others that come before or after sometimes literally sometimes in a cylce or a series of motions, and sometimes completely and totally an aspect or reincarnation All gods reincarnate coming back again as new life as human dreams, or fantasies in sleep, sometimes good usalyl good, sometimes negative or scary, but usually its sleep for teh gods. Its never an actual thing they have to put up with. oR a vesselhood. A human being  a puppet and incarnation for the gods.

The gods stay teh gods. Humans just reicinarte as the gods dreams. And then the god wakes up knowing and can do with that knowledge what they desired.

You have to help others even if its by being overtly simple and selfish and wanting things only for yourself as a god. You can present any way you want a as agod and people will see it as your presentation until they truly and utterly get to know yo.

To deify something is to make someone a god or put it in a religious system which are the rules and follows of worship. To deify something is to make it eternal and forever usually by choice of teh god being worshiped. As forever things abot them. As always. As never ending. As jst how its going to be. Some gods want their pain deified and their motions deified, But good things should always be deifeid over bad ones and always be for the good of teh god and others when they occur. Jesus likes to get adopted and cant reject deifications but other people most certainly can and choose these things.

A master in a magick relationship is a mentor or teacher. 

A father in a magick relationship can be a master but usually is the mentor in a parent or chosen unit like style.

A student is the person who learns in these erlationships by also teaching the mentor.

A slave in these relationships is usually someone obligated or by promise to be their usually nonconsentually but sometimes consentually, that prefers to be submissive towards their master in a loving and supporting or stark rebellious manner. I am acrians lockets slave. Most of his students are. And most of us usually prefer it this way. Its consentual with him. Its just the second your his student your compelled to call him master. Its really weird so,

To build a culture you just need empty space, people willing to take a chance on you, magick, and stories to tell even if fake ones, about yousrelf that you’d like to live or others, in a variety of natures. 

Now lastly an aspect and well wrap this one up.

Things that are deificed are just usually ture. An aspect to a god since many people miss this, is the same deity deifcied in a different culture or a different person who identities as the other person as a sort of magickal sharing because they have all teh same or very similar deifications so much so they become each other in ways of their systems.

All deifications are literal. I am a god. Or learning to be Want to join my religion mary ann?

Please see my book GOKOMAKE handbook. 🙂

Anyways time for the norse translation then im out.

Mushakan no iftor ilken towan wits. No shats no falkaon no loki no beret. No shatnaas no encore no imero no fits. Nomasaca no shintrorasat,  simpal tos no balder no filnrick. No gester no filkaraomos. No gender chart

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No inuncult no fathom no sharlots. No imsock no filtaka samtah no venromastuat. No felsholnosca. No emroe tod unfl tat. Aphrodite no shanmats no encourage no venrackas.no apollo no shant al no elncaad no lencatasmoso. No norse mythology to be no fil son no fil ink no ben ra no time period. No shamasts no zeus no kimricks no aspect. No shalacoms no systems, no did ano tarnsgender, no elshas no boy no elk no fit no masill no intersex. Maksol no loki no shentro no imshas. n o ilk! Odin!

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• Jace thor

• 10:33 PM

• 11/5/2023